How'd it go today?

Tree09

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Lol nah, you would have done the exact same, you'll be amazed at what you can learn if you're stuck in a hospital for weeks with a smartphone in your pocket. Cancer fortunately has spreadsheets of what is called the standard of care, and they have tons of info explaining everything in laymans terms. Then you can look up the studies that were done (often quoted in said literature), thankfully that info wasn't behind a paywall so we were able to look at the studies and get the actual info the doctors use. Then from there you can work up what questions to ask, and then what questions after that. As long as your shitty dr is doing what the standards recommend you're probably ok, simply because that's what the science has proven through clinical trials. All the literature is referenced so all you have to do is click on them to go deeper and deeper, and the next thing you know the drs will start asking who you're talking to, that's when you know you're pushing them to do better.

My mom was an icu nurse, i have several aunts that are also nurses (with friends that are drs), and my sister is an incredible er nurse that has been doing the traveling game for awhile now and has worked all over the country. Several members here also helped with their expertise and support (thanks again!) so needless to say i had plenty of help figuring out what the doctor couldn't. Also when i got barnes involved i had an actual dr who had helped develop the treatments, so that cut out the noise dramatically. Medicine is obviously a very complicated and personal thing, and the doctors are overworked in an assembly line of patients, so it's up to you to make sure stuffs right.

I had some great drs too, the ones that worked on my partial paralysis went over and above to figure out what would work with me, without them i would have been completely paralyzed on a breathing machine attempting chemo, aka dead. So there's good ones out there, and they network to help them solve stuff so you are often working with several drs but don't often know it. Just keep on them and make them do their job, be polite but ask pointed questions to get to what they aren't saying but are thinking. I got a lot of mileage over the simple "if it's not this, then what could it possibly be?" Or "this is what the standard of care is, why do we want to deviate from that?" By carefully wording stuff in certain ways you can push them to think about it differently, and will often get answers they don't want to give out yet because they're still working up to it. If you're thinking Lyme then make sure you say so, then if they won't test for it (without them explaining why it's not that) then go around them. Hang in there man, we're all in your corner.
 

Bioassay

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I filmed some educational YouTube content all about the proper procedure for installing a friction saver from the ground using a throw weight and throw line. I picked this relatively tall pine even though it had super abrasive bark (my thin Dyneema throw line likes to slide under the many slit openings in the bark and get stuck with trees like this). Not only did my throw line somehow become a rat's nest in need of untangling, but when I went home to look at the footage and begin the editing, I realized that I somehow managed to turn the camera off during some important moments. Apparently, incorrectly believing I was being filmed, I spent approximately one half hour talking to myself like an asshat. Oops. That was a pretty frustrating discovery. Meh, oh well. I got to do some climbing at least.

Then I ordered Chinese food, did some high speed photography of birds maneuvering about, walked to the pharmacy, spoke to my girlfriend on the phone, and then I took some long exposure photos of the night sky which I'll layer with separate shots of natural features that were in the foreground for the sky shot, except now the focus will be on them and I usually illuminate them with a light, sometimes with colored light, which creates a cool result. Cacti, trees, boulders, palm trees, etc.

Finally, I did some seriously deep pondering about the direction of my life and about anything that I should be doing which I'm not currently doing. It was a helpful thought exercise, however, it left me with a fair amount of anxiety and stress. I guess that's how it goes sometimes when you try to be a present participant in your own life.

Sometimes I wish life had a "pause" switch.
 

cory

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Finally, I did some seriously deep pondering about the direction of my life and about anything that I should be doing which I'm not currently doing. It was a helpful thought exercise, however, it left me with a fair amount of anxiety and stress.

How old are you? Science/sociology tells us that older people are generally happier than young people in part because old people no longer have to figure as hard about the direction of their life since much of it has already happened and also probably b/c old people generally have developed more wisdom simply by virtue of being extant longer and they are less driven to worry. :rockhard:
 

Bioassay

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@cory I'm currently 34 years old. So, you're spot on in your assessment. I wasted a lot of my life suffering through a gastroneurological disorder which saw me disabled at the age of 18. Simultaneously, I developed a myriad of mental illnesses and, as a coping mechanism, wasted a huge part of my life away addicted to drugs of all different kinds. Also, because I have been on Social Security, I've been limited to working part time. I also never went to college, so most of my job options are pretty horrible. About two years ago, a new medication put my disability into remission, and I no longer was having to be hospitalized once or twice a month for 5-7 days at a time. My life immediately improved and, soon thereafter, I got control over my drug abuse issues. Now I'm at a turning point in my life where I must decide which direction to go. Having so many options is overwhelming.

This might have been TMI, but that's alright. If people are going to judge me, they'll do it without my help regardless.

In other news, did you know that Russia's number one warship is within shooting distance of the US right now with Zircon missiles aboard? You do now. A bit unsettling if you ask this guy.
 
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Fiddler

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That's wonderful the med and abuse problems have been getting solved!

I remember 34yrs old well. After several years of drug & alcohol abuse, jail stays, losing everything I had twice, etc., I had and extremely intense feeling of being behind in life compared to my expectations of where felt I should be. This brought about a lot of stress & anxiety, because of the overwhelming feeling that I needed to "catch up".

If I may share one suggestion, don't fall into that trap. It's cliche' but: do your best to take each day as it comes. tomorrow is not an emergency...it's not here yet.


As for the ship: I grew up having nuclear bomb shelter drills in school. Warships of many nations cruise the world over. I highly doubt there is a place in the world that is not within striking distance of something at any given time. Been that way for many, many years. It's one of those "tomorrow" things.
 
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treebilly

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We were called off due to weather today. Only reason I’m a little upset is with our odd pay period, I would’ve had a 65 hour paycheck this week. I don’t mind long hours this time of year. I almost have made enough in overtime in January so far to pay for my cabin and hotel stays for the two vacations we have scheduled without taking from my savings.
Anyhow. I watched the kids play in the snow for a few hours and now I’m heading out in the rain to split some firewood. It might seem odd to most that I want to do that but being at the wood pile, even though I joke it’s my pit of despair, is my form of church so to speak. Kinda need it right now
 

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@cory I'm currently 34 years old. So, you're spot on in your assessment. I wasted a lot of my life suffering through a gastroneurological disorder which saw me disabled at the age of 18. Simultaneously, I developed a myriad of mental illnesses and, as a coping mechanism, wasted a huge part of my life away addicted to drugs of all different kinds. Also, because I have been on Social Security, I've been limited to working part time. I also never went to college, so most of my job options are pretty horrible. About two years ago, a new medication put my disability into remission, and I no longer was having to be hospitalized once or twice a month for 5-7 days at a time. My life immediately improved and, soon thereafter, I got control over my drug abuse issues. Now I'm at a turning point in my life where I must decide which direction to go. Having so many options is overwhelming.

This might have been TMI, but that's alright. If people are going to judge me, they'll do it without my help regardless.

In other news, did you know that Russia's number one warship is within shooting distance of the US right now with Zircon missiles aboard? You do now. A bit unsettling if you ask this guy.

Rule #1 Don’t sweat the little shit.
Rule #2 It’s all little shit.

Set little goals you know you can accomplish and work your way up to bigger goals. You’ll sort it out and find your groove. Try to learn from other people’s mistakes, the world is full of teachers lol. Not trying to tell you what to do, just do what I’m trying to tell ya. :D
 

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Self advocating is important even in the lands of subsidized medical care.
I often wonder how older people or those younger ones who aren't so cluey manage to navigate some of the clutter.
At least we don't have to worry too much about the bills, but I've lived through that too in another life.
The biggest problem with not paying for your own medical care is that you lose any leverage with the doctor as to how you are treated. You have to take what they give you, period. At least I have a say in how I am treated since I am the one paying for it. No government official or insurance company pencil pusher can deny me a test or treatment because I don't fit into one of their checked boxes.
 

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I don't dispute having greater control when holding a full wallet, but I don't think it's the pencil pushers at fault in my current situation. They've certainly blown through plenty on little evidence and with no success so far.

I believe this falls firmly in the Dr. laps (one in particular). I'd liked to have received his snarky little reply to my request in person.
 

Bermy

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I am fortunate to have a choice. I can use the public subsidized system, or elect to choose my Dr. and self fund my treatment. Medicare still pays for a chunk of it, yet cannot dictate my choices if I'm paying the gap.
 

Ryan

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Drove to Winnipeg to meet the orthopaedic surgeon who's gonna fix my broken wing. 2 of 4 tendons in my shoulder are ripped from the bone. He wants to fix it "pretty soon", in a month or two. Then 6 months before I'd be cleared to manipulate scaffold components again. My daughter thought that was a long time. I told her I got nothing else going on. And really I don't.
 

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@Ryan, was this a workplace injury?


Wraptor earned its spot in the truck, again. I got a rigging line stuck in a tall fir, and had to go back up as the last thing for the day.

Climbed a nice fir to start the day, to remove two long limbs. One was about 6" in diameter, and probably over 50 years old. Maybe many more. I got the collar cut piece of wood to count.

2 huge throw line rats' nests today. Maybe I should cut it down, and tie the two together when I need extra length. 250'.

Yesterday, my GF climbed a fir that needed a couple limbs rigged from over an outbuilding and fence. Building more experience.
 

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@Ryan, was this a workplace injury?
It was 30 yrs of labour and weightlifting wear and tear that came to a head as I kneed the dumbbells up on an incline chest press, heard/felt two pops and one dumbbell landed on my chest as my arm folded in. Ego lifting to prove that I still could until that fateful day when all of a sudden I couldn't. 😶
 

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@Fiddler It's interesting that you say what you said because that is already exactly how I feel: completely and utterly hopelessly behind in life. I have a twin sister who somehow doesn't have any of the issues that I had and she's been doing remarkable things for a long time now, so it's difficult to not compare myself to her and others. However, I'm doing my best and I'm pretty sure that's all anyone can expect from me. I'll do my best to avoid letting myself view my life as if I'm rushing to catch up. I appreciate relatable advice.

@BlackSmith That's great advice. My anxiety issues have a way of making every little setback feel astronomical and it's difficult for me to keep everything in my life in perspective. I'll definitely do my best to have a greater awareness of the true nature of any setback I may encounter because, as you stated, the majority of it is little shit which, if I allow myself to, will be quickly and easily forgotten about soon enough.
 
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cory

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@Fiddler it's difficult to not compare myself to her and others.

@BlackSmith My anxiety issues have a way of making every little setback feel astronomical and it's difficult for me to keep everything in my life in perspective.
"Compare and despair"

It is important to expect nothing, to take every experience, even the negative ones, as merely steps on the path, and to proceed. - Ram Dass.
 

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@Bioassay, maybe it's best to not have goals. Life kinda gives you what it wants to give, when it wants to give it. Point yourself in a general direction, and see where you end up. Keep your eyes open. An interesting opportunity you never considered may present itself.

I'm not in the biz, but I think you just apply to tree companies you want to work at. You already have a good bit to offer as a new guy, and you're willing to work. Get in, and see what happens.
 

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You have much experience joining throwline? I'm almost inclined to get a whole new one when a line breaks. Seems like the knot would attract snarls sitting in the container, or deploying.
No. @biggun mentioned doing it, IIRC.

250' with 2 bags doesn't allow a double fold of the cube, at least not without careful, intentional stacking instead of neat stacking.
 

lxskllr

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Yea, I found that with my backup cube that has 300' of line. I /can/ double fold it, but it isn't pretty. I just fold it once. My primary long line container is a 2.5G bucket, and my short handthrow container is a makeup bag(Kyle's favorite).
 
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