Knotorious
That Guy With The Face
I had a really amazing day compared to my last week of veritable hell on Earth. I finally spoke with my father and he reassured me that he and my mother are handling the incident my ex created just fine now. He was able to speak with a lot of his neighbors that received the pictures and explain the situation to them and he said everyone was pretty supportive and understanding. So that pretty much made my day and it was an immense relief to hear my father in good spirits, strategizing with me about how to approach getting a restraining order and getting a lawyer to achieve justice for myself and my family.
I feel soooooo much better now, but I still have tons of anxiety and sometimes even panic attacks as I can't seem to stop obsessively ruminating about the intense embarrassment that I still feel and being judged by everyone close to me. I had a psychiatry appointment today and told my psychiatrist all about what my ex girlfriend did and how I've barely slept for days, anxious, panicking, etc. She gave me a prescription for an anxiolytic drug called Klonopin, which I had been on before many years ago, in hopes of helping me calm down.
I filled it at the pharmacy and took one and, one hour later, I felt like a human being again. I'm able to breath and to think clearly and focus on what needs to be done versus what has happened. It's just a temporary addition to my med regimen, until I recover from all of this insanity more fully. I hate needing to take yet another medication, but -- man oh man -- does this stuff work well.
All in all, everything is starting to improve and I'll be going to the police station tomorrow to get a restraining order filed against my ex. I can't wait to get that out of the way. I'll feel a lot more protected, and be much more able to relax, once I know she can't turn my world upside down for the duration of the order. Things are looking up finally. =-D
I feel soooooo much better now, but I still have tons of anxiety and sometimes even panic attacks as I can't seem to stop obsessively ruminating about the intense embarrassment that I still feel and being judged by everyone close to me. I had a psychiatry appointment today and told my psychiatrist all about what my ex girlfriend did and how I've barely slept for days, anxious, panicking, etc. She gave me a prescription for an anxiolytic drug called Klonopin, which I had been on before many years ago, in hopes of helping me calm down.
I filled it at the pharmacy and took one and, one hour later, I felt like a human being again. I'm able to breath and to think clearly and focus on what needs to be done versus what has happened. It's just a temporary addition to my med regimen, until I recover from all of this insanity more fully. I hate needing to take yet another medication, but -- man oh man -- does this stuff work well.
All in all, everything is starting to improve and I'll be going to the police station tomorrow to get a restraining order filed against my ex. I can't wait to get that out of the way. I'll feel a lot more protected, and be much more able to relax, once I know she can't turn my world upside down for the duration of the order. Things are looking up finally. =-D
Nothing like huffing glue and solvent all day, I'll take weld smoke and grinding dust any day over that crap.
